I miss her every day.

The joy and grief of motherhood.

I rarely write share about my journey in motherhood.

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I carried her every day for 30 days so that she could fall asleep in my arms.

That is my 2-year-old 12.8 kg toddler.

I reasoned that within a few months, my body would no longer be able to hold her in this way.

I reasoned that it was only fair she got to fall asleep in a familiar way whilst we lived in a less familiar country.

I reasoned that this is the most surefire way for her to get her afternoon nap.

But I think the reason is that I just really miss her when she is not close, that I miss her even when she is close.